Gay fear
Often when I utilize the word homophobia—especially in spaces that aren’t exclusively leftist—someone challenges my usage, saying that it isn’t an exact term, that it isn’t a truefear.
Except I argue that the word homophobia actually does explain a real fear.
People who express (or even feel) homophobia are afraid of what the presence of gay people means for community in general and even are anxious of others perceiving them as gay.
They’re afraid that marriage equality will “destroy the family”.
They’re scared of being overwhelmed by queerness: that queer sexualities are being “shoved down their throat” or that “there are too many” identities and initials in the 2SLGBTQQIA acronym too keep road of.
They describe queerness as “a lifestyle” and are anxious that this lifestyle will erase their own. They’re frightened of their children being gay, or more specifically existence turned gay.
They’re scared of people thinking they’re gay, particularly if they’re a man. It’s why they avoid pink, why they don’t stand too cover at public urinals, why they don’t wear jewellery or skirts or makeup, why they don’t have lingering hugs with other men.
It’s why they react so abruptly to
My Fear of Being Gay
It started in sixth grade.
I used to flip through Limited Too catalogs, fixating on the pretty, female models and think, Do I have a crush on these girls? Am I attracted to them? Horrified by myself, I'd next to the magazine and tuck my knees to my chest in an attempt to comfort my acidic stomach.
I'm not gay, am I?
Religious expectations, coupled with my own outside stress, exacerbated this obsession with my sexuality (binge watching Will and Grace didn't help either). I vividly think of my eleven-year-old self walking through a local park with my mom and mustering up the courage to broach the subject. Her resulting horror shut me down immediately. I didn't understand how to explain to her that this was a dread, and not a reality.
In lofty school, my fear of homosexuality reignited after my first partner dumped me. I feared having crushes on my female friends, my female teachers, or females associated with my ex. It drove me crazy and I felt compelled to tell my friends about my anxieties. Despite this urge, the only person I told was my mom. Her reaction was unchanged since our talk years before. Still shocked, she advised me not to tell an
Even in States Where You’re Supposed to ‘Say Gay,’ Fear Often Outweighs the Law
'Inclusive curriculum' laws are supposed to create welcoming school climates for LGBTQ and other marginalized students. Making it work is really hard
By Beth Hawkins
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Lost amid headlines about hundreds of bills seeking to curtail protections for LGBTQ students over the last five years is a surprising fact: More LGBTQ teens live in states that require schools to teach LGBTQ people’s historical and cultural contributions to society than in places that ban their refer in classrooms.
More than 1 in 4 queer 13- to 17-year-olds attend educational facility in the seven states that now mandate this inclusive instruction, versus 20% who live in the 20 states that own passed what advocates notify Don’t Say Gay laws.
Research shows schools are safest for LGBTQ children and educators, and that students learn best, when they see themselves in classroom materials. They are far less likely to catch homophobic and transphobic slurs, to feel
Why am I terrified of my sexuality changing?
It’s completely normal to question your sexuality—many people perform at some show in their lives. However, if you find yourself constantly obsessing over your sexuality, experiencing recurrent intrusive thoughts, and having intense anxiety, it could be a sign of a mental health condition. Excessive fears about your sexuality align with a common subtype of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) known as sexual orientation OCD (SO-OCD).
SO-OCD is much diverse from genuinely exploring your sexuality and reflecting on who you are attracted to. With OCD, the brain seeks 100% certainty about who you’re attracted to—something that’s very unlikely to attain.
Keep reading to understand more about how SO-OCD differs from healthy self-exploration and how to discover the right support.
What is sexual orientation OCD?
SO-OCD is a subtype of obsessive-compulsive disorder focused on concerns about your sexual orientation. OCD is characterized by a cycle of obsessions and compulsions. Obsessions are repeated, unwanted intrusive thoughts, sensations, images, or feelings, and compulsions are repetitive behaviors or mental acts performed to neutralize the obsessio